Un altfel de Eden

It doesn't sneak up on you. It's always been here. Lurking in the shadows. You know it's there. But you can't fight it. When the moment is right, it swallows you whole, and everything you ever loved gets swallowed too. You learn to want the sadness, crave it. It's the only feeling you have left. The only proof that you are alive. They don't understand. They don't care. So why tell them? Sometimes you feel perfect. Like the world is finally back to how it's meant to be. But then something small changes that. A comment, a picture, a thought. And it all comes spiraling in again. And the blackness is now your enemy as you try to come up for air. As you try to hold on to that small glimmer of hope you once had. But it is not a glimmer of hope anymore. It never was. Your mind was just tricking you and now you're drowning.